Poem because I have my mother's heels
Jannah (Paradise) is under a mother's feet
—Saying of the Prophet Muhammad
And I wonder
what have I done
to deserve my mother's heels
besides not moisturize my feet
ever?
I did not push five babies out of my body
raise them to adulthood
I never stood in kitchens
in Islamabad
or Peshawar or Kuala Lumpur
or even in Sunnyvale
night after night
peeling and frying onions
simmering garlic and ginger
I never changed nappies or attended
parent teacher meetings picked and
dropped off kids to school and friends
houses never gone to bed tired with each
bone aching from not just a day but years
of the work of mother love
I have not sustained life
the way my mother has
I have done none of these things
but I have memorized my mother's heels
from nights of rubbing her feet
while sitting on her exhausted
upturned body
rubbing arthritis creams that
invade my nostrils
massaging her scrawny feet
her heels dry as sand and cracked deep
like pieces of earth after a quake
I used to think
there is no hope for her heels
they will never be supple princess feet ever
no amount of Vaseline-in-socks-through-the-night
no remedies
could restore my mother's cracked heels
now at 24
I see I already have them.
perhaps it is enough
that I am my mother's daughter
and we trail behind one another continent after continent
city after city
how can we help it
if dust gets between the cracks of our heels
and decides to make its home